Sunday, June 11, 2006

The Curriculum Of One Nothingness To Another

It is ponderous this thing of existence for there are about as many reasons to want to exist as there are arguments against it, there is no brave face that one can put on the general unreality of existence and yet there is something so beautiful in the entire fleeting masquerade, you are not any given thing here, the closest you can get to any speculation about a genuine reality is that you have a soul and even that seems nothing more than an Irish pennant specially as it is based on a oddly terminal fact, eternal reoccurrence that’s our curriculum, we must reinvent ourselves, our humanity and our association with all things known and unknown, it is a terminal messenger that repeats that process, we must be grateful that we forget, that we don’t remember that in the end our personal discovery of ourselves is made impossible through transcurrence, that in the midst of an ever wondrous universe the sequence of events that lead to reoccurrence crash every other impeding occurrence, we are thus sadly blessed; this is not going to be a happy chapter.

And it is not going to be a happy chapter because it points to the pointlessness of existence, you might want to stop reading here unless you are a Buddhist as they seem to accept the meaninglessness as a whole with the greatest degree of equanimity; regardless existence doesn’t have a motive it is simply a suffix in a universal context for once out of the nothingness there is nothing else that desire essence can manifest, that is when the desire begets existence whatever we want to say about that existence we cannot say it without speaking about everything else in the universe, we all become dependant on universe and cosmic immersion, and as we do the universe expands to create room for such dependence, thus the universe is expanding - and thus why the universe appears to expand, it keeps on getting filled with entities from the nothingness that desire to exist, and the more desire essence type entities that formulate their desires within the context of this universe the greater the expansion of universe and this is always bound to go on and on and it is even bound to be indefinitely so, meaning forever and ever because desire essence types amass a pull upon desires constrained within nothingness and ease the flow in the linear direction of time space universes, thus the expansion and its seemingly accelerating spreading out, however that doesn’t mean that the universe will get colder it actually could get hotter as it amasses desires - those very desires will either sustain density equilibrium or increase it, they may sustain it if the corresponding densities of external phenomena outside universe has or have a greater density so that it or they may hold us back or if externals have a lesser density they may allow us to expand around their perimeters with greater ease, or even to expand into its boundaries - even allowing for us to reabsorb external energies into a greater and faster expansion of our universe.

What is most unlikely to ever happen is an absolute contraction, that is that we could implode and disappear and never reflect light again or just plainly radiate, (a black hole radiates) that if possible ought to be a rare event because desire essence types would rather reach a compromise, with all other entity types than to ridicule themselves into a reemergence into their own nothingness, but there is another truth here which is the horror that I was speaking about that makes this an unsavory situation, since we are all willing to do whatever it takes to stake our ground within the context of existence and universe, we are also willing to compromise as any expansion of our ergio energies will have to surrender part of its life force in the process of congruence coerced upon us all by the aberration or the non entity that we call universe which somehow fosters us all even as it is absolutely nothing contextually in reference to us, this because it is all the things we are combined and nothing at all not even desire energy and not even pure simmering nothingness, only here is the crux of our cross to bear: Universe slams all reactionary elements into any other reactionary and catalytic elements so as to diffuse their intranquility and as this begins to consume all the energies of the colluding varying entities it causes an inextricable itinerary towards an agglomeration of simmering of the desire energies, thus the desire energies must collude to exploit more desire energies so as to prevent the universe, that is nullifying them, from zeroing then out through simmering, and the universe which is not conflict oriented but rather based on conflict avoidance will continue to initiate heavy weight fights and nuclear confrontations to mellow out and retire all the would be fighters or/and energy agglomerations, thus any violent acts or events that you witness within universe are evidence a plenty that the universe is a pacifist trying to vanquish disparity of energies within its perimeter.

This of course reaches the ultimate of apparent paradoxes or terrible outcomes, Universe! the thing born of colluding desire entities escaping from a given nothingness has to seek a simmering so that there isn’t a particular-massive annihilation of entity types within its constructs, and yet as it does this universe strikes at a horrible hole in its logic, all normalization leads to an inverse simmering and eventually into an immersion of all entity types into a single type essence, and thus it must be horribly concluded that all universes eventually become a new type of nothingness when at last they succeed in simmering all energy entity types within their membranes.

We may reach a robust conclusion here, that the Casmir effect takes place even in the macro aspect ratio, we are bobbing energy from the nothingness, and that universe is just another aspect of nothingness reproduction. Which is what I don’t like about this, and what I think is interesting about it as well, that is that it implies that Universe and not Desire Essence are the ultimate foundations of Nothingness overall, that is that the Nothingness exist because something that is massively detectable, knowable and expandable and graspable is able to realize its desire to contain everything within its boundaries, and in order to prevent runaway anything it forces a simmering upon all, and thus returns everything, cycle through, to the nothingness from which we came, and thus to the nothingness you shall return.

But wait it is not that simple of a loop, this is not from the nothingness you came and to the nothingness you shall return, this is a little significantly different for you return not to the nothingness from which you sprouted but you return to another form of nothingness, a nothingness comprised of all the entities that have now been merged into and sifted through you and with your essence type into a perfect and precise simmering, now you are not wholly just your pure essence entity type, there is something else within the constrains of your pure essence type, and that something else will not allow you to reenter the same nothingness from which you came even as that nothingness occupies precisely the same timelessness the same spacelessness that all Nothings occupy, however yours is now dimensionally and characteristically a whole other type of nothingness, that is indistinguishable from all the other nothingness types in characteristic for that must invariably be true, all of nothingness rest on the same insignificant and unfaltering and inexpressive attributes, you ought not be able to detect one nothingness from another, they will all seem the same but they are not the same, neither observation nor knowledge will yield variables-anything out of the nothingness, and this little odd reality implies that you are moving from one nothingness to the next, that your main frame of references seems to contradict characteristic at every term, and that Universe is in fact yet an eventual and mandated expansion of the nothingness, something keeps on turning all things into nothingness, new and wonderful things, interesting phenomena are all being returned or repositioned in the context of some nothingness doctrine that has not explained itself, will not explain itself and by nature ignores everything and thus it is how it kills us all.

Does this mean that we are moving somewhere? Difficult to say though it seems likely that we are moving at least from one nothingness to the next nothingness that has not much to do with the prior nothingness because each new nothingness that we embody has within its simmering essence the constructs of the path that we traveled through space-time, immediately I think we cannot be happy about this, expression seems too momentary, too transient, and even a universe seems short lived, the eternal reoccurrence keeps birthing nothingness which must invariably reply an incoherent answer to our question: we are the midwifes for another nothingness and the nothingness is expanding successfully through inane desire.

Ohm, ohm, ohm…