Sunday, May 21, 2006

Our Prejudice Towards The Nothingness

“…and to the nothingness you shall return.”

We have all heard that line spoken by any number of religions, nihilists and pessimists in whatever guise and it never ceases to be disturbing, and I myself, coming from another angle, had a difficult time comprehending why people were so against coming from a state of nothingness, why be so against the nothingness, it is after all a perfect state of equanimity, same essence throughout, cipher resistance and cipher disturbance, the same from all points of observation and vastly permanent, in fact omnipresent contextually and omnipotent as it does not recognize anything else. Overall the nothingness is far more something that anything that is indeed something, for definition always comes at a cost to greatness and grandness.

And that is precisely the problem that we have against our origins, that we come from a same mass, that there is no distinction in it, that the nothingness which is not nothingness but rather the sameness of something gargantuan in essence, is thus indistinguishable from a nothingness from within, is so abhorred by its same essence that at some point it acquires exploratory powers and diffuses itself throughout the universe from wherever, wherever being exponentially timeless and spaceless, anything we do after that, touches space-time and begins to mutilate same essence, thus the universe is born of a series of a same essence types that could not have realized self recognition within the boundaries of same essence and thus altercated the universe into existence with a desire energy for characteristic definition, it is thus better to be a mountain that a part of the nothingness, it is better to be a devil than a homogenous mass, and it is thus that from that homogenous mass rises the essence of emotion and with it a desire to exist.

“We are not nothing, we are something, I am, I feel, I beget!”

This is critical to our kind, and everything in this universe has to be shouting that and then settling for the obtuse accord that is adjusted by the simmering of the universe, everything that comes here must simmer within the context of everything that is equally here to represent itself and to compromise, if it wants any sense of presence. And so thus our persistence from the nothingness in the here and now is dependant equally on a denial of part of what we are and that denial personifies itself in the concept of objectivity, objectification leads to the recognition of an external, and of a meeting of the conditions that the external imposes against any subjective essence types, all essences are of course subjective but they come to stay in universe and to participate only as willing subdivisions of an arrested essence, thus I come to be me in the here and now because I have compromised in order to save myself from the nothingness that my self essence fundamentally is.

Pleasantly ironic it then is, that while we contrive to desist of our same essence type equally our success in the here and now and our expansion within it is wholly dependant on us smuggling our same essence type into here from the nothingness.

It is thus the imposition of characteristics which define the universe that induces in us all the prejudice against our vacuum origins, however it is equally that nothingness which energizes the universe, that nothingness is thus a greater fundamental truth even if it is so hideously indistinguishable that it desires to escape from it self and in the process creates everything that though something is still but a mere reduction of that fundamental nothingness.

ricardo